someplace special

the only way
it goes away on the
inside

the only way
never be afraid

you're still aware
of long ago nights
when nothing made
sense and it felt as though
the walls were tumbling in
around you

but now it's better
you're out there on your own
and there's no one to help you
up if you were to fall
but the freedom
is the
realest
emotion you've ever had

what you have isn't so much
but it means something to
you

the taste feeds on your soul
like a starving dog left in the
rain to rinse away the bark

if you're lonely
you can hold yourself
and the seizures
won't shake you
to pieces

if the darkness comes
there's a candle
you keep in your
guts
for purpose
and pleasure

if the ghosts return
you have damnation
at your fingertips
to flick away the fear

you build this for
yourself
every piece
a piece
of mental health

in the burn
you burn for
some special truth
a witness of lie
in this
someplace special
a fire in denial
a grounded portrait
of what was supposed
to be

and how it has
come to this
a special mess
thrown together
in haste
from the waste
you've carried
and now it's time
to realign
your mind
and flutter past
that little gasp
in the back
of your throat
and begin anew
to find something true
in this someplace
                      special