never ever

never belonging anywhere.
never setting down roots long enough to belong.
never tending to friendship or love.
never knowing what blinding faith is.
never calling anyone by name for as long as can be remembered.
never pretending to be one of them.
never right.
never wrong.
never standing in the never ever.
never wanting more than what could never be there.
never vengeful.
never waning.
never calling anyplace home.
never intended.
never shown.
never a symptom of a disease that could never live within.
never born.
never grown.
never lying for the sake of telling a lie.
never sorry for what had to be said.
never encouraged so it was never expected.
never criminal.
never bending.
never lived.
never secure enough with mother's touch to let the tension subside.
never called anything but lost.
never afraid that you've never died.
never smooth.
never rough.
never tempting the machine of fate that takes the luck away.
never belonged and
never was.
never hurting without just cause.
never spending too much time dwelling on the things that can't be cured.
never standing.
never falling.
never prayed.
never found.
never giving when the giving was good.
never told.
never held.
never hold.
never bringing anguish when pain was all that was needed.
never golden.
never tarnished.
never truly broken, but never truly together.
never hugged where it hurts.
never corrupted.
never forgiven.